基本上这个Blog就是一直在重复着被我抛弃又用回的循环里。转眼回顾,上次在这里写东西已经是2年多前的事情… 现在我是想要用这个Blog来写些自己从来不会亲口对别人说的事情还有自己的想法。让一些真的想要了解我的人有这个机会听听我内心的声音。

看回过去,我觉得自己可能其实一直以来都没有什么成长。每次过了一段时间然后再看回自己前阵子写的东西,都会有同样的那种感觉,就觉得自己以前写的东西很搞笑,觉得自己的想法很幼稚。也许2年后我再看会这篇东西有是会有同样的感想。每次我以为自己有成长了,结果其实我还是被困在同样的情况里面。自己依然还是那么不善言辞,总是找不到适合与其分享内心想法的人物和那种机会。遇到解决不了的问题的时候,还是一直把自己沉浸在游戏世界里,一直逃避。家里的问题也一直没有解决,我回到来这里还是时不时要被吵架声搞得心烦意乱,一直都无法体会到家的温暖。自己还是不停地在寻找着自己的真爱,把感情放在一个自己觉得真的很重要的一个女孩身上,结果最后还是无法追到手。信仰上的道路也是,一旦生活变得轻松就会开始放纵自己。

一年半的A-Levels转眼就这样结束了,其实我真的希望可以再更长一点。想要花更长的时间来跟一些朋友相处,更想要有多一些时间来跟我喜欢着的这位女孩建立关系,想要在信仰与真理上更加根深蒂固,想要有再多一点点时间来做我的A2考试准备,总之还有很多很多事情想要做,可是很多现在都做不了了。回到来JB,真的什么动力什么目标都没有了,感觉自己真的很没有希望。最主要还是被感情的事情给困住,真的很爱很爱那个女孩。虽然知道自己其实已经没有机会了,可是我是真的真的不想放下…

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  • Jul 06 Sat 2013 20:35
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Today I saw a tragedy from facebook, a 18years old girl had jump off from her condominium. Then I surfed check internet newspaper. Different newspaper has their own description about this incident. But all got write the simillar things that is, the dead had confided to her cousin she had been abbused by her mother and had the thought to die. The newspaper company said it is believed that the girl suicided because of this. But the mother said that she and her daughter's relationship was very good, only sometimes got a bit stern to her and it is for the daughter goods. However, the dead had already died, these all are not important anymore, but the thing I want to say is, there is no problem that cannot solve, as you are alive there will be a way to solve your problem. Don't cincai waste your life.

By the way, today is Hari Koko, took part in the kawad competition, losed it, but really a bit enjoyed it la, although losed it. It was the last time for me to take part in kawad liao... got a little bit 'she bu de', but at starting I felt damn bushuang, Form5 liao still have to join kawad. Now regret liao LOL. And yesterday is Hari Sukan, didn't go, because need to train for today kawad competition. But I heard that is was very boring, so didn't go also never mind ba. However, yesterday night was Camp Muhibah, maybe I should go de ba. Also got a little bit regret liao, last year d. Tomorrow they are climbing Gunung Pulai, I am not going also. This one I shall not be regret liao gua. Really shouldn't go.

Today I started watch GUNDAM AGE, few episodes only, not bad. Got many difference compare to SEED series. Have to start hardworking study liao, cannot keep watching, must tell ownself this so that I won't be forgotten. SPM is not far anymore.

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZVCdLi6FGVg#start=0:00;end=116:02;autoreplay=true;showoptions=false

this concert!!! I very very very very love this concert lo

if got the chance I want to go for next concert of this musician! 久石让 (Joe Hisaishi)

he is the composer for all the theme music of 宫崎骏 (Miyazaki Hayao) anime movies

all very nice!

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Haiz very very sien

actually I got a lot of things want to share with other people in the heart

but I don't really have a very suitable person can share to

haiz haiz haiz

was wanted to have a girlfriend before this to share all my these feeling

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